Rants of a sleepless mind:

Things in their incompleteness at least have the hope of their turning out good at the end. It's when they are complete that  no room for hope remains. I, therefore, seldom finish the work I start, be it art, books or poetry,  and especially poetry, for no particular reason that I am aware of and it's the unawareness that keeps me at it. Perhaps, I like to be hopeful, maybe I am just not strong enough to live the certainty of an apprehended outcome and wants to enjoy the comfort of uncertainty of what ifs. 

  It's certainly  not a healthy way of pursuing things, or anything for that matter, but often our whims outlive our judgement of wrong and right. And that's the cause of all the worries.

Perspective

This poem was written in early January, 2019 when we had to think of a topic for our architectural thesis. This was an impromptu penning down of words much like brainstorming, later arranged into proper sentences, laced with moderately fancy words, fancy yet easy enough to get my point through. The piece isn't dandy but surely straight from heart. It has been deliberately placed in a no-frill setting, words put in as unostentiously as possible.
It's got no title because when do thoughts come with a title?! They just barge in, right!

P.S-You might think why am I posting it now.?!
Honestly, I have no answer to that, it just felt okay to post it now. It's taken a whole lot of self motivation, and from friends too, to get over that self loathe of not being good enough. So with a shaky revived-confidence I am set out to be seen (again).
P.P.S - It's my first take at writing in Hindi.
          Not the best work but I'll get better.

 Sach kya hai iss Jeevan ka ?...
Kya koi Kahaani hai ye
Ya hai koi kissa....
Ya fir hai koi anant rahasyamay gyan ka Sagar jiska hai ye ek chota sa hissa....
Kitaabon Puran kathaon mein jhaank chuki 
sach aur bhram ki bhi  sambhavnayein bhi aank chuki  ....
Ghoomi main varshon is Sansaar mein,
drr drr hr ghar, hr mandir masjid aur girja bhi main ho aayi....
Pr fir bhi iss shrishti ki maya meri samajh se parey hai
Isko main na samjh payi.

Hai bhook daridrata aur lachari log fir bhi khush hain,
Uske pratikool jinke paas sb kuch hain unka hi haal sbse chintayukt hai..
 Na Sukh hai na sadbhavana bs aseem aas hai sukh prapti ki.....
Tyag sukh chain kitna kuch haasil kr dikhaya hai,
Itna dhan Vaibhav kama k bhi kya sach mein humne kuch paya hai ?!
Sawaal toh bohot hain jawaab dhoondna hoga.
 Pr kambakth waqt ye kahan rukta hai ye toh bs khud ka hi hai aur kisi ka na hoga.....
Shan shan ye jo waqt roopi dhan hai ek din kharch ho jayega,
Hum kharch ho jayenge bs swaalon ka zakhira reh jayega.....
Pr main ye bhi jaanti hoon main pehli nhi jo is prashn ka Uttar dhoond rahi,
Kai hain meri tarah ...aur yaqeen hai main aakhiri bhi nahi.
 Kai aayenge meri tarah jinko shayad uttar mil bhi jaye pr kayi Bina Uttar paye chale jayenge ,
apni kahaani apne sawaal kisi ko isi tarah kisi kavita mein btayenge.

The eccentricity of life

The 20 year long life that I have had , has been anything but boring, hasn't exactly been nice  either. its's just that life's idea  of  awesome didn't ring with me. It always has had a lot to serve when  variety was demanded, but sometimes disappointment  was served too.Just when I would think its potential to surprise has reached its limits ,it would smirk with a wicked air of  notoriety and bowl a googly and I with a sigh would think 'there is always a next time' , reiterating it to contain my disappointment. After years of complaining , and cursing  it for its partiality and unfairness I have realized life is way too moody to yield to my allegations. It will chart its own course regardless of what I expect of it.

So finally  , I gave in and consorted with life . We have been on pretty good terms now (touch wood) . It, however,,still has been just as reckless, impulsive, whimsical , who loves to throw surprises when least expected, as ever but  all the unpleasantness served now is taken with a pinch of salt and pepper.....

taken with a pinch of  salt and pepper .